Hey Devi,
I am working on myself and by your grace I will be a successful man in next few months. By your grace I can do anything, by your power I can defeat anyone and here's a prayer I have written for you, It blossomed in my heart when I was reading Upanishads.
O Devi, protector of truthful
Destroyer of untruth.
I am a fool, lowest of the lowest
I am nothing without your grace
Devi I must never abandon your lotus feet
and
Please never abandon me O supreme mother.
So am I happy or sad? I am good. I love life despite insufferable pain and a million issues, it is a blessing not everyone has it.