Devi, I am just tired. Sometimes I think I can't take this anymore. Managing a chronic illness like type-1 diabtese which slowly eats my body away, family issues, money issues all these things are too much.
Why why why why why why why
You know some people get everything effortlessly while others die wanting simple things. Yeah I am not asking for things, you have given me enough.
Some days I know what I am doing, where I am going but Devi some days I feel completely lost.
Apart from horrible things, many positive things happened like I started going to gym, one health codition healed which was almost impossible to heal and I faced my fear of public speaking.
I share this because in Human life we all face troubles until we die. Life is full of suffering. I am tired but not defeated yet.
With my the grace of Devi I will keep going.
We all need some love some care and some kindness in our lives but we find we don't get it. I think that's the time we become givers. World is full of beggars but who is stopping you from becoming a king. Give give and don't expect anything in return because most people are very poor when it comes to love.
Have a good heart, strong body and a calm mind. Worship Devi everyday so the world and it's inhabitants keep a distance.
I have understood from experience that the moment you wish something, anything, you open a doorway to hell. You will be hurt very badly. I am practicing not expecting anything from anyone. Still as I said life is full of suffering.
I hope now I begin my Sadhana by the grace of Devi.
