Dark Times

Hey Devi,

Dark times have come.

at my worst health and physical shape.

not earning any money.

don't know much people.

a toxic household

not having achieved anything.

don't have a room of my own.

don't have a good working conditon pc of my own.

just living like an unwanted kid who should have never been born.

yet somehow I refuse to give up but the truth is I don't know how much longer I have.

Shakti

 Hey Devi,

                    I was thinking about it. Who am I? Why I am being so weak and cowardly in the face of troubles? Remember Devi I was the one who asked on Diwali I am not scared of suffering mother give me more pain this is not testing my real strength? and now I am saying it hurts, how can I let weakness take over my heart in such dark times.

I am not this and even though the circumstances are not in my favour I must not kneel and beg for mercy.

My family, blood relatives, people I have known are all feeling sorry for me and they think I am over. They think he is just a sick kid who will struggle all his life and never be happy. He is lost and he will never get up.

My doctor says you don't have as much time as others and that time is not going to be pleasant. He prohibits me from doing excessive physical training and playing extreme sports. 

One day they will realize they all are wrong.

Recently I got caught up in some health conditions that are very very painful and even when I am wiritng this article I am in extreme pain.

But, I am not going to submit to these situations. I will not cry even if pain is intolerable. I am not saying crying is a sign of weakness. 

Oh Divine mother this is the time to show inner strength and only strong and wise can handle extreme situations like these when all doors closed and one is surrounded with death, pain and suffering.

This pain is nothing and I am not scared of what comes next. I would end this artcile by this quote.

" If everything around you seems dark, Look again. You may be the light. " - Rumi

Taking responsibility

Hey Devi,

                    Recently I observed I have been worrying too much about my health and stuff but then I realized well I am going to die anyways so why not take responsibility of my situation and do some good things.

I don't want to end up like the people I see around me all poor and stressed. 

This wish alone wakes me and motivates me to study and learn new things. Our bodies are turning to ashes anyways so why not use each minute for loving, kindness and creativity. My parents say don't sit in front of a pc whole day well my eyes will not be of any uses some years later anyways so why not use them before it's too late.

I love nature and I believe in power of hobbies. Your friends may abandon you, the people you love may cheat on you and break up with you or say hurtful things to you but a person can always heal as long he/she has some hobbies.

These are for mind but hobbies alone not gonna save everyone that is why reading spirtual text daily such as Bhagavad Gita or Upanishads or any other vedantic literaure is important. 

I watch or read something from vedantic literature everyday and I have benefitted a lot from it. My phyical health is not great these days I am not in the best shape but I have started working on it.

One great thing about consuming great things is that it will not let you stay stuck. Thanks for your grace divine mother.

Maa Vedavati | An Avatar who spread the knowledge of Vedas

Meditation and Love

Hey Devi,

                    Recently I tried meditating the Budhhist way which is also known as Vipassana and it was a divine experience to be in present. 

Studying about Vedanta everyday and making improvements. But to whom? to whom I am making improvments? to my mind because my consciousness is spotless and colorless. It doesn't need any improvement. 

One more thing I came across is live in your real nature which is atman and not in your mind which is filled with worldy identities and stress and darkness and habits etc. We must realize this we have infinite power and these little challenges in life are nothing in front of Atman.

As a human we must make our lives and our personalities beautiful. We must love and respect ourselves so much that if we look into a mirror we say " Thank you man! I love you and how you are! ".

We need richness of life. We need that joy and beauty and it will not happen automatically we must work on it and build it. Only then we can love and respect ourselves truly.

Imagine you take rotten food to your date and your girlfriend starts eating it and she starts appreciating it. What would you think in that moment? Of course she is a fool to eat that rotten food. 

Same way you know your life is unsatisfying and you have failed so many times at so many things that now you have lose all love and respect for yourself. If someone will love this miserable person then you will start disrespecting her/him.

If someone would love you in your current state then will you respect them? no! 

So first rise in your own eyes, take risk, do big things and love yourself first. Build a worthy life only then you will be able to accept love.

My first responsibility is to look at myself, constanlty observe myself to know if I am on the right path or the path of decline. I must shed my ego and accept my reality. 

Only then I will be able to love or be loved by someone. 

Goal is to shed all tricks and be simple. Yes, I have been though hell but I have not fallen. I will not and I don't need anyone else to pick me up. I will die standing than to live on my knees. If I will be great then automatically I will love and respect myself.

It's not easy and you will get hurt on every step but that is life. One day doctor will say only 2 months left? what then huh? How can one live being weak. Even before us we will see our loved ones die. How will we face life if we are scared of every little inconvienience. 

Face suffering head on like Arjun sitting on the five horsed charriot rushing into battle against the greatest army of all time. We are in the same situation except we are that version that left battlefield and hid into the jungle. 

These are some learnings and observations I have made. I wonder how life would be when one lives his life free from mind's darkness. 

Thanks for your grace and love divine mother.

Some Spiritual Observations

Hey Devi,

                    How are you? well recent times have been very tough for me with increasing pain and diagnosis of a new health condition. Managing day to day normal life is getting hard and painful. I don't know how long my inner organs gonna function properly. 

 

No one understands how hard it is to be like this. 

Kathavachaks say in this life we have happiness and suffering and bliss and disease.

But in my experience the moment of joy and happiness are very short while pain and suffering are continuous non-stop.

What if I don't run away? What if someone see the pain and does not associates it with suffering? I am reading Drig Drishya Viveka and I can see how this world is, for a short time but yeah I too get absorbed away into this chaos.

Thanks to great saints and our ancient rishis I can pause and see beyond my gain and loss. 

Suffering is constant, and happiness is short lived. This is the experience of my life have been so far. Hmm Let's see what happens.

Thank you for your grace divine mother, I am grateful for every little thing you do for me everyday and for the people in my life. I have nothing to ask for... I mean " who " is going to ask? my ego self? well it will never be satisfied. The true self? well it is you so yeah I thank you so much and I would like to repeat what the Rishis of Upanishads said. 

" Guide me from the darkness, to light "

My pendant broke... but not my spirit

There's a lesson in the incident that when the goddess is in your heart, you don't need outer symbols. Saying this myself sounds egoistic but no I am just her humble servant in this world and I have no desire to be treated specially and I am not even the humblest servant I am just somebody, forget me it is not about me it is about Devi.

Daily I experience something so intense something so new I can't describe in words, these things happen only by the grace of Devi. I am sick from a few weeks and mentally depressed too, I took a paid test and it came out I have severe depression and anxiety. I didn't wanted to be this way but all the things that have happened and some external things that are happening daily push me down and down. 

Things get hard sometimes but I am a determined seeker, I instantly with whatever mental and physical power that was left in me, started gaining knowledge about my symptoms and how it is happening. I read books, articles and watched countless videos related to depression and anxiety and different aspects of human mind and emotions etc. Nobody understands this though they keep on doing their controlling behaviours but I guess I must heal myself somehow.

I am feeling better although very sensitive these days I am conducting some self-therapy methods which I have found effective and there is no shame in studying your own behaviour and improving your life. Some people might live as if science vs spirituality but that is an immature way of looking at this magical thing called life. 

Sadhana made me self-aware about many things and recently I have started learning about CBT ( cognitive behavioural therapy ) It is helping me a lot and I have decided to study psychology in depth after I study a good amount english language.

Thank you Devi, Thank you Sadhguru for introducing me to Yoga, it's liberating experience and enormous health benefits. Taking care of life is very important specially for me it is fragile. 

I have written a prayer for Devi

Hey Devi,

        I am working on myself and by your grace I will be a successful man in next few months. By your grace I can do anything, by your power I can defeat anyone and here's a prayer I have written for you, It blossomed in my heart when I was reading Upanishads. 

O Devi, protector of truthful

Destroyer of untruth.

I am a fool, lowest of the lowest 

I am nothing without your grace

Devi I must never abandon your lotus feet

and

Please never abandon me O supreme mother.

So am I happy or sad? I am good. I love life despite insufferable pain and a million issues, it is a blessing not everyone has it.

How to talk to the Devi

Namaskaram, in this post I will share the method of connecting to the divine mother goddess and feeling her presence and grace in your life. I have been off lately from writing because I have a lot of things going on from study to career to family pressure and stuff and a million things all at once, surviving by her grace. 

As you know, we all go through difficult days and our heart feels restless and worried and anxious and scared of don't know what but something that consumes us from inside and makes our world darker and darker, fear and depression and sadness and weakness poisoning our mind and making us weaker day by day. You want to kill yourself but you cannot, you want to live but you cannot. You want to cry but still you smile and when you smile you feel guilty for being happy as anxiety is your permanent home. 

But remember in this vast cosmos, which is infinitely big, even the word BIG fells short to describer it's vastness, we are equal to nothing and our lives end in the blink of an eye so what you did or happened or what you feel doesn't matter, nothing matters in front of universe but everything just get dissolved into it. So the best decision you can make today is not to belittle your tiny successes and joys and feel good about yourself, just choose to feel good even in the times of trouble, that's the bravest thing you can do and Devi loves you anyways so why you strive to be good in the eyes of others, you are already good in the eyes of Divine Mother Goddess. As all the actions happen in mind and body and stay there, you are not mind and body, untouched by all actions, clear and divine.

Devi is that fire that ends the darkness and spreads the light of wisdom, peace, calmness and abundance in the devotee's life. She is so kind she just can't see you in trouble, the most compassionate one. She is the kindest most loving deity and one tear in your eyes is like a an arrow in her heart, she always loves her devotees and she is an eternal companion to those who seek her in distress.

So here are the steps I follow as I connect to her for inner guidance and her grace and to just share what I feel with her.

Step 1 - Wash your hands, face and legs with water

Step 2 - Light an oil lamp

Step 3 - Offer a flower to her like you would give it to a loved one with a smile and with full emotion 

Step 4 - Sit comfortably straight in padmasana or any way you feel good to sit for a few minutes

Step 5 - look into her eyes and take deep breaths, make yourself comfortable

Step 6 - Close your eyes and take deep breaths and soon enough your head will start to clear

Step 7 - Now share all your worries, you dilemmas, your fears, your wants... Cry in front of her, just surrender yourself and she will take care of all your worries and she is Shakti she will provide strength to your heart and she will keep you in her lap and you will always feel protected and loved and safe.

She is easily available to those who calm their senses and mind by yoga and dhyana... she never leaves. She is the divinity within you. 

That's it for today, keep doing your Sadhana, Namaskaram!

33 Names of Devi with Their Meanings

Namaskaram, recently Isha Foundation released a series of posts where they shared about names of Devi Linga Bhairavi which are associated to her 33 qualities. Here I have collected all names and meanings at one place.

1. Gurubhyo - the first name in this series, talks about Devi as the all-encompassing one - the Guru. In the Yogic culture, the Guru-Disciple relationship is the most sacred one. Disciples yearn to mirror their Guru in every aspect. Guru is the guide, the teacher, the light in the darkness, and the ultimate lover.

2. Swayambho - the self-existing - the one that has originated from itself. Devi is extolled as the one who is "self-manifested", the one with no parentage, and who is “self-created”. She is the destroyer of the past, offering the possibility to sweep away karmic bondage.

3. Swadharini - One of Devi’s supreme qualities is that she is “self aware”. The Sanskrit word Dharini comes from Dharana, meaning “concentration,” or “steady focus.” In yoga, when you practice Dharana, you are “binding” the mind to one place, idea, or object. Dharana is the initial step of deep concentration meditation.

4. Mahakalyani - Bhairavi is revered as Kalyani the one who brings well-being, prosperity and good fortune. Across Indian culture, parents name their child as Kalyan or Kalyani with this sacred attribute, meaning auspicious, blissful and fortunate. This name is not only lovely but also profound.

5. Maha Bhadrani - is a name of Devi that attributes to her quality as a fierce protector.

Known for her benevolence towards her devotees, she is always by their side in whatever situation they are going through, in ways deemed impossible and unimaginable.

She is seen as a Divine Protector of not only humans but all life forms on earth.

In some languages, this particular name also signifies the beauty of the full moon, the divine feminine, and the color Red.

6. Maheshwari - is the compilation of two words 'Maha' and 'Ishwari' - refers to Devi's quality as a Great Goddess. 'Maha' means great while 'Ishwari' is a term used to refer to the Divine counterpart of 'Ishwar' or the Lord of the Universe. Ishwari is the female ruler, considered as the 'mistress of the Entire Universe'.

Maheshwari also refers to Goddess Shakti or the Divine Feminine Energy. All the three main dimensions of the this energy (personified as Durga-Lakshmi-Saraswati) are unified in the form of Linga Bhairavi. She is the exposer of consciousness and reminder of the Divine that resides in all life around us.

7. Nageshwari - Snakes are revered and worshipped as sacred creatures throughout Indian culture. They are the symbol of fertility, creative life force, perception, and mystical dimensions. They also symbolize rebirth, transformation, immortality, and healing by shedding their skin.

At Linga Bhairavi, the divine energy of Devi can be felt through the symbolic Divine sarpas carved in Her abode. They are adorned and filled with kumkum or valmeekam as a part of the ritual that enhances regenerative qualities and perception.

8. Vishweshwari - 'All-pervading' or 'omnipresent'. Vishweshwari is a salutation used to address Linga Bhairavi, whose presence is exceptionally powerful and all-encompassing.

As Vishveshwari, she is regarded as the queen and ruler of all existence, protecting and nurturing the entire universe like a Divine Mother. As a manifestation of the Divine Feminine, she is incredibly fierce yet equally benevolent and kind towards her devotees.

9. Someshwari - One of the 33 qualities of Devi Linga Bhairavi is that she is Someshwari. The Goddess of the moon or the one who is intoxicated with bliss.

Cycle of Moon and cycles in woman body are closely connected. Here is a beautiful poem by Sadhguru on woman and the moon.

"Woman"

These creatures of the moon

in such delicious swoon

the sun in me not the only boon

to these creatures of the moon

Daily death, a must for the sun,

to be kept and nourished

in the pregnancy of the moon

It is her gracious reflection

that sees him through the night

Sun, the source of all known creation,

is but born in the coolness of the moon

The Creator placed such trust

in this unreasonable madness of the moon

Bestowed the womb to bear

and the feeding breast

May she flower and bloom too soon;

only then can there be worthwhile harvest

When the world knows the nourishment

of this womb,

In celebration will exist

these creatures of the moon.

10. Dukhasamharini - Devi Bhairavi is a destroyer of suffering. Dukha means suffering and samharam means the destroyer.

Suffering comes in various forms for various people, Devi's compassionate energies eliminate suffering in an instant or gradually, according to what's best for the people. Not only for living beings, but she offers ease and peaceful transition for our departed ones as well. As the past is also a kind of suffering, She frees people from their past as well.

11. Hiranya Garbhini - is the salutation to Devi Bhairavi as the very source of creation of the universe. It basically translates to a 'golden womb'. Devi is seen as the one who delivers existence itself. She is ever pregnant with the essence of life.

This sacred space is as vast as the universe itself. In much of Bharat's culture and modern vernacular languages, pregnant women are still referred to as Garbhini, a term that kindles tenderness and signifies the divine within them.

Garbhini is also one who nurtures life to its full potential and then engulfs it back to make it a part of herself again. The word is not just limited to human beings. It refers to all life forms that are pregnant, thus a reminder that Her presence exists in every life.

12. Amrita Varshini - is a name given to Devi, which means "the one who showers Amritam".

Amritam represents the pinnacle of sweetness and pleasantness and is also considered to be the elixir of immortality.

Varshini is term used to describe the 'goddess of the rains'. Devi is believed to shower an abundance of Amritam on her devotees, if they are open and receptive to receiving it.

13. Bhakta Rakshini - the fierce goddess known for the unwavering protection of Her devotees. She is revered as the ultimate mother and guardian of the five fundamental elements of nature and the entire cosmos.

Bhairavi devotees can experience her protective nature through consecrated forms such as the Bhairavi Raksha or a Devi Yantra. Additionally, physical contact with a consecrated form of Devi can create a protective cocoon around the devotee.

14. Saubhāgya Dāyini - The Bestower of Good Fortune

Devi is the one who grants prosperity, happiness, and success, not just in material aspects but also in terms of life and its fulfillment.

With Devi Bhairavi's Grace, good luck is showered on her devotees, blessing them success beyond their own capabilities and efforts. She is the ultimate Giver of all that is essential for one's growth and blossoming from various walks of life.

15. Sarva Janani - is the name of Devi that personifies her as a mother of all. Sarva means all and Janani means one who gives Janma or birth. So Devi is the one to breed, nourish and sustain life, not just of human beings but of the entire Earth.

As a mother is tender, nourishing, and fiercely protective, Janani also pertains to all women and denotes the feminine nature to the closest.

16. Garbha Dayini - bestower of the womb. 'Garbha' refers to a womb. 'Dayini' means the bestower. As Devi is the ultimate mother of all life here, she is also the one to bestow this gift of motherhood.

She is the womb where existence happens, a space where all creation is. So, she is also the one who provides the power to procreate in all life forms.

17. Shoonya Vasini - the one who dwells in shoonya or emptiness.

Out of all the words that we can use to describe shoonya — the origin, infinity, emptiness, void, vacuum, nothingness — Shoonya is the vast nothingness from which the creation was born. In Sanskrit, shoonya implies empty space or void. In mathematics also, shoonya denotes zero, the ultimate number that has no value of its own but can add value to any other number.

As creation happens in the lap of this vast limitless void, Devi dwells in shoonya. In this very source of all creation, She opens it up as a possibility for all.

18. Mahā Nandini - This name is the praise to Devi as one who is a great giver of joy, pleasantness, and happiness.

'Nand' means delight/ joy. Literally, nandini means a woman who brings joy. It also specifically refers to a daughter, as a daughter brings joy to the family.

In the Hindu religion, Goddess Parvati is often addressed by this name as Nandini refers to one of the eight eternal companions (Ashtanayika) of Goddess Parvati.

19. Vameshwari - the Goddess of the Left.

Vama means the left side, and Ishwari means the Goddess. Goddess Parvati is referred to as Vameshwari because she sits on the left side of Shiva, she indicates that the left side of the human body is feminine. Even today, in our culture married women are made to sit on the left of their husbands.

Vama also means occult or path of tantra. As Vameshwari, Devi is also the basis of all occult and tantra.

20. Karma Pālini - Goddess Bhairavi is the ruler of karma, which is the basis of everything that you are today. Devi's grace can dissolve one's karma and hasten their spiritual growth.

21. Yonishwari - This name describes Devi as the womb of the whole creation. 'Yoni' in Sanskrit is a word for the womb of all mobile and immobile beings. Yoni is also the female counterpart of the Linga.

As the genesis of the whole material world, she is the space and source where the creation resides. And as the Goddess of all wombs, she is the bestower of the power to procreate and produce.

22. Linga Roopini - is the name of Devi that extols her as the one who is in the form of a Linga. It is very rare to see Devi or feminine manifest in the linga form.

The ellipsoid shape is the first form of creation as it manifests itself and the final form just before it dissolves. So Devi's Linga form is a self-explanatory symbol of Her energies being closest to this attribute and the sheer intensity and immense power she has.

It is also the form which can retain energies for a very long period of time.

23. Shyam Sundari - "Shyam" is the dark hue of the sky during the time of twilight. As darkness is the very embodiment of space and time where light is just a brief happening, shayama points out these qualities of Devi. It also tells about the all-encompassing inclusiveness of Devi, just like the vast darkness.

Sundari is used to portray Devi as the most beautiful one or the epitome of beauty itself.

As a dark beauty, Devi is seen in her gracious, compassionate, and fierce forms and is worshipped and celebrated in each form.

24. Trinetrini - Devi's three eyes —intense, fierce, and compassionate — also represent the Sun, Moon, and Earth. It indicates that Devi enshrines and unites all three fundamental qualities of Tamas, Rajas, and Sattva.

In this form, she is also known as Trinayani or Trimabaka. The third eye of Devi also denotes perception. It depicts that Devi can perceive dimensions that are beyond physical.

In a unique offering at Linga Bhairavi, a symbolic Third Eye in copper or silver can be offered by devotees, to appeal to the grace of Devi’s Third Eye.

25. Sarva Mangali - the most auspicious one. This name is the one given to the 'Gauri' form of the Devi, where she is the very embodiment of radiance, Grace, auspiciousness, and well-being.

The most benevolent, she bestows auspiciousness on Her devotees in the form of success, prosperity, and spiritual well-being.

It is based on this attribute that we have the powerful and endearing chant popularly chanted in many places of Divine Feminine to invoke Her blessings -

“Sarva Mangala Maangalye Shive Sarvartha Saadhike Sharanye Trayambike Gauri….”

26. Maha Yogini - Devi is the female counterpart of the 'Master of Yoga'. She is the greatest practitioner of yoga and tantra, and carries the ability to bestow this spiritual knowledge on Her devotees.

27. Klesha Nashini - Salutations to Goddess Bhairavi, the Destroyer of Hindrances.

One of Devi's benevolent qualities is to remove impurities that hinder a devotee’s growth and evolution. Her unbounded Grace aids them to burn through all those complications that lay in their path.

At Linga Bhairavi abodes, the powerful yet gentle process of Klesha Nashana Kriya is derived from this attribute of Her presence. The ritual is offered to those wishing to become more receptive to Devi’s protection by cleansing their aura with fire and other natural elements.

28. Ugra Roopini - The Fiercest One

Out of two dimensions of Feminine - Gowri and Kali - Devi Bhairavi has been created in the Kali form of the Divine Feminine; the Dark One. The very embodiment of fierceness, in this terrifying form, she exudes power, might, and intensity at the same time extreme compassion, and protection.

The word ‘ugra’ translates to 'scary ferociousness'. This quality depicts Her absolute mastery over everything, where She is a complete force by Herself. The Indian culture usually reflects women as fiery and bold, rather than domesticated and soft. This attribute serves as a reminder of the fire of the feminine within.

On one hand, this formidable form may instill fear in some but for devotees harboring deep love and devotion towards Her, it reassures them of the strength of the Mother Goddess and Her power to protect and bring them to ultimate dissolution.

29. Divya Kamini - is the salutation to Devi as the Divine Enticer or the Divine Lover.

Kamini describes an array of qualities — it refers to the most affectionate, attractive, passionate, and beautiful woman. As Divya Kamini, Devi is the lover of the creator, the one who enticed the stillness and emptiness of Shiva into movement, manifesting the whole creation.

Kamini also means desire. It is this quality of Hers that has propelled creation to take shape in its various forms and structures.

30. Kāla Roopini — the personification of darkness and time is the name given to Devi as the female counterpart for kaāla or Shiva.

In yogic science kāla is the word used for both space and time. As space can happen only because of time, kāla essentially means time.

As Kāla Roopini, Devi is the maker and destroyer of time. She is the one who takes care of birth and death. And as time is the basis for the whole play of creation, she is also the basis of the creation.

Visit Linga Bhairavi's page as we explore the enchanting and powerful Devi Stuti, unfolding the meanings behind each of Her 33 names!

31. Trishoola Dharini - Trident Bearer

The word ‘tri’ translates into ‘three’ whereas ‘shula’ means ‘a spear’. Often referred to as a fearsome weapon, the trident is actually to be looked upon as a symbolism, a physical representation of the three fundamental dimensions of life - Ida (masculine), Pingala (feminine) and Sushumna. As the bearer of the mighty trident, Devi is worshipped as the One who carries these basic principles.

Though on the surface, creation manifested from these three, deep down, they all merge to become one and the same in the hands of the Divine. At the Linga Bhairavi abode, the distinctive weapon aptly accompanies the powerful Devi, imbibing her raw and fierce energies. Her Trishul is also inclined 11 degrees towards the left, indicating the dominance of feminine energy in the space.

32. Yaksha Kamini - refers to Devi as the lover of yakshas. Yakshas are celestial beings who are not from this planet.

Considered to be the Yaksha Swaroopa, Shiva's friends consist of these mischievous yet benevolent beings. They are connected with various aspects of nature like fertility, wilderness, forests, etc.

Being the female counterpart of Yaksha Swaroopa himself, Devi is the enticer of all these beings.

33. Mukti Dayini - it talks about Devi as Mukti Dayini, the bestower of ultimate liberation.

Mukti, not from this or that but liberation from all that is yourself. Mukti from all the compulsions.

'Linga Bhairavi lets you enjoy the physicality so quickly and fully that you will naturally shift your focus on something higher.' - Sadhguru

So these are the 33 qualities of Devi... most compassionate mother goddess. May all the beings receive grace of the mother goddess.

Almost One Year Later!

Namaskaram... Life has went through many events after my Bhairavi Sadhana in january 2022. Many things have happened, some of them were done by me, some of them by others but yeah it has happened anyhow. To say it was good or bad will be against the spirit of my sadhana and true spirituality.

Isn't spirituality is all about unlearning all good and bad, black and white, so things that happened just happened I will not label them either good or bad.

With the Grace of Mother Goddess Linga Bhairavi I have done many things, that I wanted to do. I will not bore you with details but I learned game development made a game, I made a beautiful painting of Devi for my sister and she really loved it, I am so glad that I made it and I did many little but fun things in past months. 

Here is the painting. 

And for future I have planned more Sadhana which will include meditations and readings of some really interesting books. 

Yes! I got initiated in Devi Sadhana

Namaskaram, The Devi Sadhana initiation was on 28th December. I was very nervous about it but everything happened really well.

My Devi.

My family also supported me, they bought all needed stuff, cleaned the Puja room and also bought me a white kurta pajama set.

I woke up early morning, took bath with the ayurvedic Herbal Snanam powder and then prepared my self for initiation.

What happened in Initiation?

Initiation started with a Devi Mantra chanting by Sadhguru himself. Then a small discourse about Devi by him. Then I got initiated into a powerful process called Devi Dandam.

Image source: Google

Here's a reference image of Devi Dandam.

So after learning Devi Dandam, I was initiated into a powerful devotional chant or I should say an invocation mantra of Devi called Linga Bhairavi Stuti.

Now me and other seekers have to do our Sadhana for next 28 days.

Now there are some rules of Sadhana which I can't follow because of my chronic illness doesn't allows me too and that is completely okay and no disease can stop me from recieving the grace of Bhairavi Devi.