Dark Times

Hey Devi,

Dark times have come.

at my worst health and physical shape.

not earning any money.

don't know much people.

a toxic household

not having achieved anything.

don't have a room of my own.

don't have a good working conditon pc of my own.

just living like an unwanted kid who should have never been born.

yet somehow I refuse to give up but the truth is I don't know how much longer I have.

Shakti

 Hey Devi,

                    I was thinking about it. Who am I? Why I am being so weak and cowardly in the face of troubles? Remember Devi I was the one who asked on Diwali I am not scared of suffering mother give me more pain this is not testing my real strength? and now I am saying it hurts, how can I let weakness take over my heart in such dark times.

I am not this and even though the circumstances are not in my favour I must not kneel and beg for mercy.

My family, blood relatives, people I have known are all feeling sorry for me and they think I am over. They think he is just a sick kid who will struggle all his life and never be happy. He is lost and he will never get up.

My doctor says you don't have as much time as others and that time is not going to be pleasant. He prohibits me from doing excessive physical training and playing extreme sports. 

One day they will realize they all are wrong.

Recently I got caught up in some health conditions that are very very painful and even when I am wiritng this article I am in extreme pain.

But, I am not going to submit to these situations. I will not cry even if pain is intolerable. I am not saying crying is a sign of weakness. 

Oh Divine mother this is the time to show inner strength and only strong and wise can handle extreme situations like these when all doors closed and one is surrounded with death, pain and suffering.

This pain is nothing and I am not scared of what comes next. I would end this artcile by this quote.

" If everything around you seems dark, Look again. You may be the light. " - Rumi

Taking responsibility

Hey Devi,

                    Recently I observed I have been worrying too much about my health and stuff but then I realized well I am going to die anyways so why not take responsibility of my situation and do some good things.

I don't want to end up like the people I see around me all poor and stressed. 

This wish alone wakes me and motivates me to study and learn new things. Our bodies are turning to ashes anyways so why not use each minute for loving, kindness and creativity. My parents say don't sit in front of a pc whole day well my eyes will not be of any uses some years later anyways so why not use them before it's too late.

I love nature and I believe in power of hobbies. Your friends may abandon you, the people you love may cheat on you and break up with you or say hurtful things to you but a person can always heal as long he/she has some hobbies.

These are for mind but hobbies alone not gonna save everyone that is why reading spirtual text daily such as Bhagavad Gita or Upanishads or any other vedantic literaure is important. 

I watch or read something from vedantic literature everyday and I have benefitted a lot from it. My phyical health is not great these days I am not in the best shape but I have started working on it.

One great thing about consuming great things is that it will not let you stay stuck. Thanks for your grace divine mother.

Maa Vedavati | An Avatar who spread the knowledge of Vedas